"... [M]ost hurtful are those media reports who would like you to believe that I'm eaten up with bitterness over the recent betrayals, split with some close friends and colleagues,Organisations who betrayed my trust and faith by giving away scoop on me to media houses and some malicious people for money . Still feeling some grief, sure... but not bitterness. Yes, in the beginning, I was angry and hurt with the way things ended and me the constant fodder for gossip and breaking news headlines on news channels across India and the sudden transition from Page-3 to News Headlines and Front page stories on me just for the sake of some quick sale of the papers and high rates for T.R.Ps in News Channels.Hypocrisy is something I cant tolerate and Yellow Journalism was hurtful,especially I was only a beautiful decorative Show-piece name(which was used to attact attention from people and use my Celebrity for their sales.UGGH) for the papers and channels when I wasnt in anyway related in the matter.
but how could I not be upset? I gave most of my career (4 years) to the welfare of Orissa and the Indian Oriya Industry. ... and this was the way they showed their support by buying the newspapers which screamed new episodes in my life and never objecting to it at all,watching everything in silence.turning a blind eye.
I do not, in any way, hold a vendetta against my scheming,disloyal,unfaithful former friends or industry colleagues... But that has not stopped some from scrutinizing my every move and blaming me for so many things that simply are not true. ... Because of this, lately, my heart has been so heavy. It is very hard to watch the daily toll this has taken on me."